In search of something..

2 weeks.. From last 2 weeks I am restless..I am tired..I am frustrated.. Reason unknown.. But one thing, only one thing, which helps me to forget everything- my daughter. But when I am away from her, I am trying to be alone, try to be in my world. My world? Yes, a world of full of thoughts.. Wandering from one thought to another..tug of war between positive and negative thoughts.. but I fail.. miserably fail..Why am I not getting an answer? Is it because my thoughts are not in the right direction? I am surrounded with a bunch of people who are very lively and always cheerful.. But most of the times I feel I am an odd man out.. Is it good or bad? Work is okay, coz there nothing is personal, the smiling faces are around only till when you are at work. nothing matters after that..My thoughts! man, it is disturbing at times..